A World Of Our Own: Kyle And Anne

Life's getting worse, it seems..


I'm having trouble controlling my hunger for blood and sex. But that's not the worst part..


I'm having trouble in making Anne believe that I love her for real. It's not a fake love. It's not just lust or attraction. Maybe she believes me but just pretending not to, maybe she really ain't so innocent.. or .. man... I'm f**ked up! 


I just hope for the best.


Right now I have to focus on resisting my temptation for blood. Sex comes later. Though it has become a need for me to survive, but it's something not many would worry about, lol. On the other hand, the temptation for blood might get too dangerous.


-Kyle

Just wondering...

I mean, she says she loves me.. actually I know she loves me, but then.. why would she do things like that which hurts me so much?! She's confused, very confused. I don't know what she'll do next time. You wanna be with me, be with me. Forget those who don't care, I'm here to love you. Why can't you see it?

To Anne:

Hurt me all you want, but please tell me your love for me is real. I know it is but just say it..please.

Sometimes I think I'm the most simple person ever. Even though they call me weird. One of my closest friend is pissed off just because his girlfriend loves me (I mean she loves him, too.. but you know..) and I agree I'm attracted to her, too. If that was it, I would have been quiet now. But that's not it.. The friend I'm talking about once proposed my girlfriend (he asked her not to tell me but obviously she didn't hide it from me) and I never said a thing about it. He still talks to her and says that he loves her and all whatever. I really don't care what they talk about. But the point is, he finds it wrong if his girlfriend loves someone else but he doesn't find it wrong when he loves someone's girlfriend! I mean, what the fuck?! I know our friendship is ruined which I never wanted but when people try to act like only what they do is right, I don't care. I don't want to be friends with such people, I'd rather be alone. That's your world, where people hate each other because of jealousy, selfishness... And this is the world I live in with my love Anne, where the only word we know is love and there's no antonym for it!

I'm happy, are you?

- Kyle

Now here I am, looking at her photographs on facebook and I come across one of the photos she has taken from a webcam. I missed the times when I saw her on webcam for the first time. She looked so gorgeous.. and the way she smiled, took my breath away for a while. I mean, I was like dead for the moment...lol, not dead but you got my feeling right? :P
She might say she's not beautiful for all I care... maybe she just doesn't want more people to fall in love with her..lolz.
I was in a bad mood, not because of her. Anne can never be the reason for my tears. I've just fallen deeper in love more than I ever expected. Right now it feels almost impossible to live without her. I can't give up on her now. Maybe she doesn't believe me, just maybe... that doesn't make my feelings any weaker. I will love her always, forever..

- Kyle 

Man, last night's work was tiresome (yes, I work at night. I'm pretty much a vampire, lol.) I need some refreshing soft drink now. (maybe blood flavored :P)
And I've ended a relationship with this girl here who thinks that all I care about is sex. Well, as true as it may sound but no, it's not. When I say I believe in open relationship, it's with the ones that I love. I don't sleep around with anyone!
Anne's not doing well. She needs some rest but she just can't stay away from her notebook. I swear I would have thrown her notebook in trash if I was there with her! She's asking me to give up on her and just be friends. Well Anne dear, I've told you this before and reminding you again, when it comes to something or someone I love and desire so much, I just don't know when to give up. So don't even think I will let you go that easy.
There's just something I don't understand, Anne says she loves me.. but sometimes she says things which gets me all confused. She really loves me? I know she does, yet... why she acts so complicated sometimes?

- Kyle